So yesterday.... Let's just say I ended up on the wrong side of the rain, so to speak. I snapped and totally screwed up in the process. Just a lot of crap and stuff; definitely not my brightest. Anyways, the point is, is that it scared the jeebies out of me, I'm ashamed to say that it took me forever to quit crying, and it left me totally dehydrated, numb, and whooped for today's challenges. So what happened when this morning hit? I was walking around like the living-dead. Just numb; putting on a happy act to make up for the lack of feeling. Then I saw CJ and Asher. CJ caught up to me at chapel and shot me one of his contagious grins, and later after literature2, Asher came up and gave me a hug (CJ's little brother). It made me feel super lucky. Who's got friends that are more like family than anything? Let alone practically your whole school being like that? Sometimes I wonder if all it takes to snap out of things is just a hug and/or some quiet words.... It might take more depending on how close you and the person are. But its crazy what just one touch from someone your close can do to you. The dark clouds that were hanging over my head earlier? Practically gone. The numbness? I'm more alive then dead now. Maybe there is something more to this. Who knows?
I don't blame you one bit if you're thinking, "What in the world?" This post wasn't necessarily supposed to make sense. It very well could if you can relate to the last part, but yeah. (or maybe I just need to write when I have enough sleep)
Later all!
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