Nobody or Everybody

School. ..... School..... More school.... Home.... Parents.... Unhappy parents... School.... Unhappy person... Flustered buddy.... Confused me? How did all this happen? Earlier this year I swear I could've been maintaining everything nearly perfectly.... for a week. Can I really not make anybody happy? I want to go crawl in a hole, live on Stewart by myself while I get things sorted out.... Hold up a sec, do you see the problem here? I think I'm starting to. I am only focused on self and my abilities. I don't mean to be a bother, I just haven't matured to the point of where I can see these things coming from a mile away. Even though I have seen some things coming and can typically predict the next move, I still have no clue how to go about taking care of it in such a way that it is best for the needs of the many, and not the one. My name means nothing in a million, yet I am special because I have the power to make a difference. Don't we all? I only takes one person to make a move for a hundred others to follow. That's what Jesus did. He came to show us what God - our Father, our Lover - really is like. To show what it means to be a Godly being. He gave us an example to follow. Can we achieve it to the key? No. We are human. Jesus was the superhuman, concieved in a virgin by the Holy Spirit's seed. Nuts? Of course it is, but the idea of a greater being loving us so much that He's never gonna let go of us is also nuts. But such as these are none the less true. If I trust my God... If I love my God... Shouldn't it be easy to follow His example? I mean, I'm a Christian, right? No. It's not always going to be easy. The biggest thing Jesus asked us to do while He was here is love one another. That doesn't mean chummy chummy. Love is not that infatuated friendship. Love is doing something for someone, being caring, or just letting well enough alone/"sleeping dogs lie" even when you don't feel like it or highly dislike them at the time.  This is not the easiest thing in the world to do. Will Satan make it hard? Of course he will! Do you think he wants us profusely and blindly following the Savior? Aw, heck no! But if listening, seeking out, and timidly following Christ's steps is thrown out the window, then what do I have left? I have nothing. No plan. No love. No way to live. I'll be as good as the shadow that mimicks my living body: lifeless and spun about like top leaning in every direction. It doesn't work. Answer to problems? Seek Him out. Rely on Him. Focus on Him and those around you. Forget about your selfish needs. God will take care of you. Give it a week of this behavior, earnestly trying. A difference after that week? I think so. Are you gonna try it? Are you, LMF gonna try it? The one who seeks no help, reduces her self down the lazy jockish mind, and scrambles to accomplish everything she sets out to do? Yes. I will try it. I Godless life while calling myself a Christian is asinine and hypocritical. Perhaps this was the real problem all along.