"Dang, Baby-Girl..."

"Dang, baby-girl... look whatchoo dun, fool!"

Those words follow me... I do something stupid, that's the first thing that runs through my head when I do. Tonight? Those words were used along with some much stronger language I probably shouldn't be saying in the first place... I treated the one I care most about like a yesterday's trash... I'm tired from a hard mt. bike ride, I'm short on sleep, and the one person that loves me unconditionally and wants to help me, I let fly... horrible way to end a day.

The poor guy... He didn't do anything but love and care. As soon as that phone was hung up, I knew... I did no good in that... he tried desperately to get good things through my thick skull, and I loathed his words because my thickskull and my ridiculous pride got in the way. I regretted it all a short while later... This is what humanity does to Christ. He loves us. He is a jealous lover and will never stop loving or forgiving or chasing us down. This is what we do to Christ. We nailed him to the tree with our choices. What if we did a greek 180*? I want to be at the foot of that cross. Forgiven, make a turn around. Start treating them right. Beginning with my first love when I see him and my everylasting and only tonight.

"Out of pain is born love..."


- Lf